Wow! I never thought I would be writing a post like this! It almost seems too good to be true. Is this a dream?! Sorry…Let me explain!
As most people know, when you go to college, a student typically has to complete one of two things to graduate: an internship or Capstone. My major requires that I complete an internship around the time of my Junior year. I had started thinking about my internship back in Sophomore year, but I didn’t really begin planning out what I would do or where I would apply until the beginning of my Junior year.
Let me tell you, applying for internships is no easy task! Whenever I would think about applying and completing an internship, I would get very overwhelmed. How do I write a cover letter? Does my resume look professional? How many companies should I apply to? What if I get a sucky job? What if I’m not what they expected? What if I don’t get an internship AT ALL?! And when I would have just enough motivation to do one thing related to my internship, I would get bogged down by these questions (plus so many others) and barely achieve anything worth noting.
This train of thought stayed with me from August all the way to November. But then something happened, something so small I didn’t think anything of it, that eventually turned into an opportunity of a lifetime.
It was a typical Wednesday afternoon. I was sitting in my Web Design class as usual when my professor began class talking about a 6-week study abroad trip he is leading over the summer to London. He then told us that he is having an interest meeting that night and we should all come. Now…this is my second semester with this professor so we have a pretty good relationship up to this point. After he said we should come to the meeting, he directed his gaze towards me. I looked back at him and said, “Look I would love to, but I have to find an internship this summer. I can’t go on a study abroad trip. I’m sorry.” I was expecting him to simply nod his head and start his lecture, however, he simply replies, “Come to the meeting tonight and we’ll talk after that.” I was very confused. Why does he want to see me? What is there to talk about? I just told him I can’t go…. But my curiosity was peaked so I decided I would go to the meeting anyway.
That night, I think to his surprise, I showed up at the meeting about the trip. Even though I had basically made up my mind I would not apply for this trip, I still took notes and asked questions. After the meeting was over, I went up to him to see what he wanted to tell me earlier that day in class. He looked at me and went, “So…what do you think?” Very confused, I replied, “Its all great! I’m not saying I don’t want to go on the trip. I’m saying I can’t go on this trip. This is a study abroad trip. I need an internship.” He looked at me for a few seconds and then said, “What if we can make this an internship?” I stood there silent for a few seconds, trying to figure out how he could do that. A bit baffled I replied, “I mean…I’m not against it if you can make that happen, but…how would you do that?” He responded, “Let me look into a few things and I’ll get back with you.” Still confused, I agreed, and left the meeting. I probably looked like a deer in headlights walking out of that meeting room. How can he just “make this an internship”? Does he have the power to do that? What the heck would I be doing?? This is nuts!
Over the next day and a half I remained very confused by everything that had happened. I had so many unanswered questions. I walked into my class on Friday hoping my professor would provide me with some clarity. I went up to him after after class and asked him if there were any updates about the trip. He told me that he had been in communication with LU Send (the department of the school that is responsible for student trips) but it would probably be a good thing if I went there personally and talked to them about the trip while he waits for a reply. I told him I wanted to take the weekend to think it over and I would hopefully have an answer for him on Monday.
I was expecting some of my questions to be answered that day in class, but I was left with MORE QUESTIONS! How am I suppose explain this situation to someone when I DON’T EVEN NOW WHAT THE HECK IS GOING ON?! That weekend was probably the longest weekend of my life. I had way more questions than I came in with, and, to top it all off, I didn’t even know how I felt about the trip in general since everything happened so fast. I’m so glad I added more internship questions on top of the mountain of questions I already had…
The weekend came and went and I did some heavy thinking about what I wanted. The idea of living in London sounds amazing, but, practically, was this the right choice? My main concern was that I wouldn’t be learning anything new while I was on the trip because the trip was through SADA (Department of Studio and Digital Arts) and not SCDC (School of Communication and Digital Content). SADA is more focused on the arts whereas I’m focused on social media and marketing. I cared more about learning how to practically apply what I have learned at a job than just galavanting for 6 weeks in a foreign country.
I made my decision Monday morning that I would kindly decline my professor’s offer to go on the trip. I knew I made the right decision. I knew it was the right thing to do.
My 1:05 rolled around and it was time to tell my professor I’m not applying for the trip. I already told my friends I wasn’t going. Mentally I had checked out. I was ready to tell him. As usual, I went to him after class to break the new to him. As I walked up he immediately says, “Hey! Have you had a chance to talk to LU Send yet?” I panicked. I totally forgot to go to LU Send! In a haste I replied, “Ah…I am actually going there right now! I was just coming to let you know.” He told me he was still waiting to hear back from them but to let him know what they say. I told him I agreed to keep him updated and left class. Why do I do the things I do?
I ended up going to LU Send the next day to somehow try and explain my situation and see if this trip can count as my internship.
The conversation I had with the LU Send office was almost comedic. The woman could not wrap her head around why I, an SCDC student, would want to go on a SADA trip to get internship credit. She would ask me a question and I would come up with some sort of an answer but it really wasn’t much of one because I didn’t know what to say. Just 24 hours ago I decided I wasn’t even going on the trip. Now I am sitting in this woman’s office trying to fight for why I should be able to go on the trip! I look back at that moment and can only laugh because the confusion on the woman’s face is quite entertaining to think about.
I left the LU Send office feeling…hopeful. After talking with the woman about why I should be allowed to go on the trip, I began to really like the idea of me doing my internship in a foreign country. Yes, I still had hesitations about it, but overall, I think I wanted to go…That glimmer of hope last for all of an hour when I received a follow-up email from the LU Send woman denying me to go on the trip. I won’t lie…I was disappointed when I read the email. But why did I feel this way? Just 24 hours ago I said I wouldn’t even apply for the trip. How can I feel like I lost something if I didn’t even have it to begin with? I thought about the email for the rest of the day, but knew I had to move on. At least I had a final answer for my professor.
The next day was the day that I would officially tell my professor I wasn’t going to London with him. I was sad, but I knew there was nothing I could do. LU Send made their decision and I had to follow it.
For what felt like the hundredth time, I went up to my professor after class and told him I got denied by LU Send and I would not be going on the trip. To say he was confused is an understatement! I told him the extent of the conversation I had with the LU Send office and he could not believe that was why they denied me. After explain the situation, my professor shakes his head and says, “No….I will talk to them.”
To wrap up an already long story, this back and forth continued for another two weeks or so and then things slowed down because Christmas Break had come. I went back to school completely unsure if I had gotten the internship or if I needed to apply to other companies.
A few days into me being back at school I received an email from my Professor telling me that everything was approved and the internship was mine if I wanted it! I met up with him a few days later, went through the details, made a few phone calls to make sure this was actually possible, and within a few days I had officially accepted the offer to live in London for 6 weeks!
Even as I write this blog post, I still have a hard time believing I am leaving in June for a foreign country. This trip would not have been possible without God’s goodness and faithfulness in my life. Even before I got to college, I worried about my internship. I knew how hard it can be to get a good internship and I feared that I would be passed over and stuck in a bind. But God knew what I needed and He showed up in a way I never knew was possible!
So what is next?! I am currently in the process of looking at plane tickets until I get the go ahead from LU Send to book them. After that, I will be meeting with LU Send to decide what classes I will be taking while I am there. There are many more details to come, but for now that is where I am at!
I am so excited that I can finally share this news with you guys! When everything was happening in November, I wanted to post about it so badly, but knew I couldn’t/shouldn’t say anything until I had a final answer.
To those who have been with me and believed in me since day one of this process, thank you. All of you are my rock. My support system. My listening ear. My shoulder to cry on. I legitimately could not have gotten to this point if it wasn’t for you guys.
Until next time,